扫墓

It has been 4 yrs since I joined my family-in-laws to 扫墓. I was pregnant and I have to take care of them. This year, my parents were able to help. I always felt bad for not turning up, not that they say anything, just that I haven''t been able to pay respect to my father-in-law personally.

It has been 6 years since he passed away. He is such a good and understanding person though we can''t communicate well. You see, my father-in-law was from China and he speaks hokkien and I can''t speak hokkien. He had work very hard to raise his 8 children. He had never interfere with any of our decisions. Whenever we asked him, he said leave it to us to decide. I remembered he was overjoyed when we told him I was pregnant though it was his 16th time as a grandfather. I was pregnant with L when he past away........ I wished that he could see L & Z.... I wished that I have learned the dialect, then I can talk to him more. When he was in the hospital, I can''t visit him coz I was pregnant. The last time that I saw him was at his deathbed. It was emotional for everyone. I will never forget the moment he hold my hand and smiled at me. I told him I will take good care of his grandchild. I can''t send him off on his last journey or kneel down during the funeral. Perhaps that was one of the reasons I think I did not fulfilled as a daughter-in-law.

Till today, DH is still very emotional whenever we talk abt him. Once awhile, I will show L & Z 阿公 pics to them. I want them to remember him and to know that they have such a wonderful 阿公. When L asked where are we going today, I told her we were going to pay respect to him. She said she missed him though she has never met him. Probably through the pics and daddy always talked abt 阿公.

We sent LZ to my parents'' house and they had a wonderful time with my parents. We picked them up and went home to rest as LZ are still nursing their cough & flu.

To Laugh Or Not To Laugh?

While we were walking to my parents house to pick up L, we met 2 police officers walking towards us. They were friendly and they smile while walking past us. Then Z blurted out " mommy, they are bad guys! I don't like bad guys!" It was embarrassing! They turned around and all I could do was to give them an apologetic smile. I immediately explain to Z that they were the police and they catch bad guys blah blah.... Hoping it was loud enough for them to hear us. I hoped that they heard us....

I have never say bad things about police. He always get very excited when he sees a police or even a police car. When I asked him, he said he knew they were the good guys. So what makes him say that? I don't know...

Ambitions

Lately Z likes to play soccer in the house. Yes, in the house! And we have many glass frames..... Think it is time to bring him to the park. Good thing is that is was a small soccer ball otherwise I will faint!

He told me last night he wants to be a footballer. Great isn't it? DH & me are soccer fans, a Liverpool fans. It would be great to see our boy playing on the field. Hehehe.... Mommy think way ahead, he is only 3 yr old and children always change their dreams. lol He used to say that he wants to be a firefighter and a police man. I thought he would like to be a taxi driver coz when we take a taxi, he says "I like this taxi". Gagaga..... He said "I want to play tennis" too. So he want to be a tennis player too?

For L, she used to say she wants to be a doctor, so that when we are sick, she attend to us. So sweet hor? This was 2 yrs ago when she said this and she still says that at times. Then she says she wants to be a PD coz she likes kids. Then she says she like to be a teacher coz she likes to teach. Recently she told me that when she grows up, she doesn't want to be a mommy! I asked her why and she said "mommy has alot of things to do. Cleaning, cooking, shower for us, ......." Gagaga... Then I have to explain to her that not all mommies have to do everything. Wanted to ask her again what she wants to be just now but she was very tired. Will do that tomorrow.... Wondering if she has changed her ambition again :)

It is interesting to find out what my babies want to be when they grow up. How about yours?

Cough Cough

Haiz.... Just when I thought L has recovered, she is having flu & cough now. Daddy brought her to the doc again. Z has just recovered from flu and now it is my girl... Hope she will recover soon...

Rachel's Party

I know, L is not feeling well but she doesn't want to miss her best friend party @ the zoo. Told her that she will not have waterplay nor any of the party food. My poor girl..... But we were glad that we went, they meet up with some of their friends from the old school. They got to meet Mr Chicky too! Z was very happy that he carried a kid (see the pic)!

It has only been 3 months and their friends have grown so much! Daddies & mummies were asking how's my babies doing in the new school and the young ones were playing and yakking.