Fun App

We had a good laugh over who we look like when we played with this app.  Suddenly everyone was so keen to take pics!  My kiddos have no idea who are they though (most of them) but they enjoyed it, asking who is who and what they do.

Our First Time...

First time, our family attending church service together..    Just wanted note down the day we went for service for the first time..  Thank you Michelle for the invitation.

My older kiddos have been attending Sunday school but it has been years since we (hubby & I) last attended a service.  It's time for us to be back in HIS arms.  Papa was the wake up call...

This pic has nothing to do with it actually..  Just thought it looks nice with 5 different juices to quench our thirst on a hot day!

Mother's Day 2012

This year Mother's Day is just so different...

Some of the dishes that we ordered

We brought my Mom's out for lunch at Ramen Play.  She seemed to age so much within this period..

My kiddos have been great.  I am thankful for the time I have with them and of coz my dearest hubby.  I can't imagine my life without them.

Happy Mother's Day, Ma.  And to myself too.

His Resting Place...

It's all over...  Papa is at his resting place now.. Very peaceful & quiet...

It was a emotional period for us, as well as my Ma.  But I know we have fulfilled all his wishes.  To move into the new house..  To see everyone he wanted to see..  It was sad for us to see him go but we know he is no longer in pain, gasping for air..

For the past 5 days, my little ones without fail will go to him and greet him..  I didn't teach them that, they did it on their own.  I teared whenever they do that.  This is the first time my kiddos encounter death (apart the death of Zhuzhu) of loved one. It is exam period now and it was tough for older ones.   They wanted to stay throughout the day at the wake to keep 公公 company but we adults think it is better for them to attend school.   It is revision time and we are sure he hope they will do well.  Beanie was with me throughout.

Papa, we miss you...  I'm sure you are with my little Angel now...

Thank you to all our friends who came to the wake and also for those beautiful wreaths.  I would also like to thank bloggers that I've come to know and eventually become true friends. Eileen, Grace and the couple Angeline & Allan.

He Left....

My dad lost the battle on 24th April morning...  But I know he is no longer in pain and with our LORD now and taking care of my little Angel.

A double blow for me within these few months.... I must stay strong!  For my family, for my little ones...

Thank you all for your messages...

Goodbye My Angel...

*Backdated post* -  Meant to post this earlier but the pain was unbearable whenever I tried to continue writing it....

This is by far, one of the toughest post that I have to write...  Penning down my was not easy at all.... Every word is like a needle piercing through my heart...  Yet I knew I have to write it down....  I want my babies to remember our family of 5 should have been a family of 6....  Should have been...  And their little sibling is with HIM now... What was on my mind and what I'm going through..

He's gone...  My little Angel is gone...

It all started with a little remark from Beanie, the week before I found out I was pregnant again.  He said there's a baby inside me and he is a boy.... I remembered clearly I laughed at it and didn't think much about it.

Then I missed my period...   Just after 2 days, I had this feeling that I was pregnant...  Yup, just after 2 days and I was right..  It was supposed to be a joyous occasion.. But it didn't turn out that way...

(30/3) I was so looking forward to my gynae visit.  We brought along my 3 babies... All of us were expecting to see a tiny pounding heart...  We talked and joked with my doc.  Then it was time for me to do my scan...

My doc was smiling & chatting with me while I was doing my scan...  But she suddenly turn serious.  My baby is gone...  No heartbeat... No matter how many times she tried to look for it or I how much I strained my eyes to see, I can't see the pounding heart...  I can't remember exactly what my doc said...  The only words I heard were "no heartbeat... Not growing...."

How can it be? WHY?  WHY ME?  I have 3 perfectly normal pregnancies, why this time it is different?????  How could this happen?

I WANT MY ANGEL BACK!!! I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO HAVE HIM BACK!!!

My world is like falling apart... I can't hear a thing anyone said.... I was in daze... That evening, I was so tempted to die... Yes, it was very selfish of me to think of that...  But the pain is so unbearable...   I can't accept the fact that he was gone... He was only 10+ weeks...

The very next day...  I did the op...  I still couldn't accept the fact that my little Angel is gone...  I asked to do the scan again.  I hoped for a miracle..  I prayed and prayed...  But there's no miracle... I have to face the fact that my baby is gone...

I miss you my little Angel..  The thought of you always bring tears to my eyes... Pain that beyond words can describe..  There were so many what ifs...  Who will he looks like?  How's life will be with him around?  Yet, all these will never happen coz he's gone...   You may only be in me for a very short time but I can never forget you.  You will always have a place in my heart...  I will never have a chance to hold you , hug you...  Not a chance to see you, talk to you, see you smile.....  None!  None at all...

We did not share the news with many people, not even our families...  Only some close friends.. What can they say to me if they know?  Can they bring him back to life?  No... I really do not wish to hear any consoling words at that time... It makes me feel even worse...

Always remember when you see a person smiling or being cheerful on the outside means all is well.  Or when a person seems perfectly 'normal' means they have no issue at all!  Just that people do not want to share nor burden you with problems of their own.  I mention this coz of some idiotic people remarks...

I hope by penning down my thoughts, it will be sort of like a 'closure' to me and move on...  No!  There's no way I will ever forget about my Angel... How could I?  But I really hope I could move on...  For the sake of my family....  It's not fair for my kiddos to bear the pain with me...  They are too young to understand what I'm going through...  People often says time will heal, will it?  I hope...

Valentine's Day 2012

Pictures taken at the buffet restaurant where we celebrated our Valentine's

At the buffet restaurant, most tables were filled up by couples or couples, not at our tables.   It didn't bother us but I wondered if we did bother them.  Hehe...  We had a wonderful meal and the kids enjoyed taking their own food.

I have the sweetest & most thoughtful kids!  Feel so loved by our little ones!  They made these vanguard sheet crafts for us!  Z learned paper cutting during one of the recess (the PSG conduct random art & craft during recess) and did this for us.  And L, she has lots of ideas!   Cutting out small colored papers and did this big heart!  They bought it few days back and told me it was for their art projects and I believe them!  My cheeky little ones.♥

We are blessed.. ♥ 

Bento #297 (2 sets) - Ninjago

 In the boxes: Fried chicken, saba fish, snow peas, cherries & corn.

I tried to do a full body ninja but failed....  So here's the head of the ninja, did at the last mins. The alphabets & ninja is cheese.  Z is into ninja now, so he was happy when he saw this.  L doesn't mind having something like this.  Phew!  If I prepare girly bento for Z, think he would protest!  Coz his friends often crowd around him to see what's in his box.  I don't think I like that too if it's me.  Cute is ok for him but not girly.

We had 汤圆 this evening.  My kiddos don't fancy it but naughty mommy insisted that they must have at least one!

鱼生, Just Us

LZ enjoyed tossing 鱼生, so we had another one today!   They get to help out with pouring out all the condiments. 

They can't wait to start!   Caught little one eating it before we begins!   It was messy but what matters was they enjoyed it. ♥

Reunion @ Home 2012

This is the first time I hosted reunion lunch at our own house on CNY's eve!  And also the FIRST time my parents joined us!

Since my parents moved to their new place, we have decided to host this year reunion at our house and it is easier for my mom.  Dad has not been the same since his stroke, mom has to take care of him full time and we just want them to relax and have a good meal. And my dad is on soft diet, so if we eat out, he won't be able to enjoy the food.  I could see the joy in his eyes and how happy he was, even though he wasn't eating most of the food.  I'm glad we made the right decision, to have them over at our house.

After sending my parents home, we headed down to my MIL's house for reunion dinner as usual.

Here's a pic of my kiddos in their new pajamas before bedtime!

First Family Gathering In 2012

2 nieces are back from Australia & Washington and it is a good time for a family gathering.  Despite the tiredness & aching from the treetop walk, we joined the rest coz there were lots of yummy food!  Hehe....

Ah Ma with her 14 grandchildren (except the one wearing red T on extreme right)...  Missing from the pics are Beanie & my 2nd SIL's 3 kiddos.

HSBC Treetop Walk

 Something interesting for LZfamily to do on the first day of 2012!  Not that they asked for it, just that mommy wants more exercise time for the family!  Hehe... 

The kids had no idea what to expect, especially the youngest.    They thought it's gonna be the same with what we did before.  A short walk!  Something that tempted them to go along with it was the bridge!  Haha!  Well, it was worth it.  They enjoyed it, no doubt it was very tiring... 

We enjoyed the view though we can't stay long there as there were more people coming in...

 They did complained a little when we were trekking...  Asking me how long more before we reached.  The only thing I said was we will be there soon.   Along the way, we spotted spiders, iguana, monkey etc...  So these actually kept them busied for a while. 

 At the mid point, we spotted many monkeys and on the way back too.   We witnessed one monkey snatching one of the passerby's snack!  The little boy was stunned and cried for a long time... 

 The last thing we saw before heading back home...  A millipede!  

I am proud of my little ones!  They were able to complete it and we reached the treetop walk!  Even my little one tried to walk more than half of the journey!

Goodbye 2011, Hello 2012!

A lovely day spent with my loved ones and we just finished watching a movie, Super 8 at home.

We had pizza for dinner. We figured it is wiser to stay at home on festive season, as usual. It was my kids' choice anyway, they wanted to play with their new toys and watch movies.

After toasting with their favorite sparkling drink when the clock stroke 12, we talked about our resolutions.

Yeah, love it when we have talk like this. ♥ Little one may not know what all these meant but he had fun having the drinks & snacks.

My Birthday 2011

A small celebration for daddy & I on my birthday at Conrad, our favourite buffet restaurant.   Since every year daddy's birthday falls on exam period, we decided to celebrate it together.  Love the food & the company...  My 3 babies enjoyed buffet the most, taking yummy food on their own, that includes little Beanie.

An angry bird birthday cake for me, not that I'm a fan but more for my kids.  They are the fans!  My special birthday present, a t-shirt with lots of drawings from my little ones!  I feel so loved!! Thank you my babies! 

The Birthday Book

I have forgotten to post about this little booklet that my gal did for her daddy's birthday.   I was impressed and touched by what she did for him.  My man, obviously was very touched....

 This is one of the pages she wrote, love the way she expressed her love for her daddy...♥

Besides that, she also helped her bros to make card for their daddy too.  Isn't she lovely? ♥

LZdaddy's Birthday 2011

Every year, LZdaddy's birthday falls on exam period. He decided not to celebrate as usual, he rather spend the time coaching his little ones. You are a great dad, my love! ♥

My birthday man favourite food, lasksa, cooked by me.

His birthday cake, Bomber bird (angry bird)

Birthday man with his 3 lovely babies!  Happy Birthday my dear! We love you always & forever!♥

中秋节 2011

 A great family bonding time we had. ♥  We had an early dinner and went down for some fun with sparklers & their lanterns.  A night filled with love, laughter, chinese tea and not forgetting mooncakes! ♥